Never.

He once meant everything. I admired. I was swept off my feet. I flew. I was in a beautiful place. It felt like a dream. Maybe it was. But I’ve woken up. I’ve realised it will never be. It can never be.

Step back...

Sometimes you don't realise what you have and what you don't have until you step back and take a look at the whole picture.
Many people focus on the pain they feel and they allow their own cruel insecurities to drown them. Sometimes it's due to the simple fact that they don't know any better. But in some cases, people love to victimise themselves. I've noticed this recently.
Pain. It's everywhere. Easily caused. Physical pain heals with time and medication. But that pain you feel inside, it's more complex. Philosophers and writers etch their ideas into paper and minds about pain.

"No one can hurt you without your consent"
- Eleanor Roosevelt

It's true. You choose to feel the pain. You choose to surrender.
You can choose to dodge and seek shelter from the bullets of reality. You can refuse to feel the emotions. But in a way it is easier to give up and succumb to circumstances. It's easier than to fight back. Fight back with every ounce of your being. Fight against the wind that pushes you into the deep ocean. Fighting requires effort.
I promise myself that I will fight. I will fight against the tides, the wind and the storms that will arrive. And I will survive.

Gratitude.

There are so many things to be thankful for in this world.
We live our daily lives blinded of the simply miracles and beauty of life.
I'm thankful for my family and my friends. I'm thankful for the life I have.
Everything is beautiful if you look at it the right way.

Rough.

When things get rough and you find yourself in the middle of one of life's storms you have to hold on. Hold on to hope.
I can't expect others to be there for me. It's my life, my problems and my insecurities. I've got to fight my own battles. I've got to make my own mistakes.
I've been fooled. But I won't make the same mistakes again.